2012 started shaky. I spent much of my time in the early spring with my sisters, taking care of our Dad. We lost him on April 12. I wouldn't take anything for the privilege of taking care of him. I was not ready to let him go, and I am still in some phase of the grieving process.
Two days after we buried my Dad I started Insanity. I can tell you that I cried my way through more than one warm up. There were days I didn't want to work out. I was really out of shape for me, and carrying more weight than my frame needs. I called Shaun T all sorts of names. I couldn't believe how much I was sweating during the STRETCHING.
Three people really helped me through this:
1. My husband Jimmy
I can be really mouthy at times and he just pushes forward anyway. He worked hard to keep the schedule clear, help me protect my time and encourage me. He fixed meals, snacks, Shakeology, post-workout drinks, whatever. On some really tough days for me he got out there and did the workout with me. I could not have done it without him.
2. My Dad
The realization of how hard he fought Parkinson's is very prominent to me right now. He persevered. During some of the tough times he could get more done in a day than some people get done in a week. If something that used to take him 2 minutes now took him 30, well that's just the way it was. And the thing that suddenly stood out most to me was that he NEVER COMPLAINED. I mean ever. He would fuss at us when we wouldn't let him do something he wanted to do, but I never heard him complain about having Parkinson's. How could I not push forward when I had that type of spirit for an example?
3. Shaun T
In 2011 I met Shaun T in person. You cannot help but love the guy. His word of encouragement for me that day - "when you think you cannot possibly do one more [rep, jump, minute]...then do one more, and you will get there." He's probably told 1000 people that. But it spoke to me that day. There were days when I'd push play and think "there is no other word for this program, this guy is nuts!" but I adore him. I can't tell you how excited I was to tell him this year that I'd completed (not mastered) Insanity, and I was calling it Round 1.
Whatever you are going through right now, do not neglect your physical exercise. If you think you cannot get going, put on your shorts and do 10 minutes. If you can't push on after that, stop for the day. But chances are you will keep going. True fitness doesn't happen in spurts, or randomly, or short term. It's a long term commitment to be the best you can be. It's cummulative and it takes deliberate effort.
You are worth every second of it. Don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise. Make it a priority. Do you have to do intense workouts like Insanity? No. But for the love of all things holy, do something! Everyone has to start somewhere. Set your goals and own them. You never know what you might end up accomplishing!